So frigile

Life is so fragile.The earthquake had took away at least 1000 people in this disaster. Help have being pouring into indonesia. But their help will never be able to ease the pain of losing their love ones. It will take them a very time to led a normal life again. On the other hand on the other side of singapore, Mrs Terri Schiavo,the brain damaged Florida woman have being trying to be alive on tubes. Now, the state judge had ruled to remove her feeding tube, no water and food have being given to her then. I wonder if she want it to be kept alive that way or if she would rather be gone.. I do hope that the ruling will changed, as only being alive will then miracle happen...

Yawn..

Yawn.. Super tired.. Dont seems to be getting enough sleep.. Went out on fri for karaoky and two movie in a row at Nite.. Reached home about 4am.. Best part is I had to work on sat.. Hence never sleep lor.. But I Was super awake at work. After work on sat went down to cineleasure to support brembo. Ash.. Never manage to take a good picture of him with jaime yeo. He pillion jaime for a coke event. Wanted to meet his wife as well, but she went for a spa that day so never manage to. Missed them man.. So long never meet them already. Brembo still look the same just that he had his hair dye.. Stay till about 5 plus near to 6.. Wah cannot tahan already.. Must go home and sleep.. I am death tired..

Guess who I saw?

Guess who I met today girls? Alvin, the guy who wore spec from 4c
class, siglap sec school! Gosh my eyes is so sharp man.. Keke.. I was not
very sure it was him then, but I just called him just to confirm. He is
working at SCS Bedok now. Those were the good old days then, back in
secondary. I was like a crazy woman then, chasing my friends around,
taking their photos. I looked like a total nerd.. Haha.. I can never forget
how they sabo me during my birthday, coke, flour,eggs and water bomb!
Gosh.. I smell terrible man! Our class was the most notorious lot, but
surprise surprise, our class was well liked by our disciplie
master.Ah.. How I missed that period of my life..

UFM 100.3

UFM 100.3 has always being my number one choice of channel in the morning. In the past, they have guest star like yi feng to participate in the talk show. Missed her witty way of talking. Now they still have the talk show but in a different way of presenting. What I like about this talk show on the radio is that they talk about different topic concerning you and me,things that is happing around you. It is almost like debut show. Talking about topic in a different light and view. Very happy to see such good radio show. Just imagine, some school include this radio show as part of their lesson. Keep it up UFM 100.3!

My dream bike.

Ah.. Cannot tahan man.. The sight of the bike vespa can drive me crazy. The look of it is so cute. Cant wait for the next four month to pass by quickly. I want to take bike licence! It will take me at least one whole year then in order for me to be on the road. For now, I can only look look see see ..

The after effect of blading..

Ah... My body aching like nobody business man.. Never know that blading can worked on the whole body. Now my back aches and my leg is sore.(leg rose coz the inline blade must be wore tightly.) The best part is my right foot got one big whole wound coz the shoe is not very fitting! Pls Pls quickly heal.. Coz I still want to blade! Haha..

My first inline blading experience

Finally, I got to play inline blade today.. Not bad for my first time, I managed to blade for quite a distance. Just that when there is a hump, I could not get over it. I fell as well, all in all, I fell about five time in three hours. But over all I was very happy over my learning experience. Thanks to Tony, he is a good teacher. The whole learning experience inspired me quite a lot. When I lost my grip, my friends will be there to help me break the fall. But when they are not around, I have to learn to stand on my own and blade myself. For now, I have not learned to cross the hump. Hence I could only go around the hump. But that is not the solution, to go around the hump. In life, we cant go around hiding own problem as well. I belived very soon, I will be able to go over the hump and I need time to learn how to go over it. Friends are what I need now ...

Starry Nite on the roof top with budak pantai

I love them.. Their funny character and their songs.. So happy they have got together tonite to have this mini concert.. Ticket is only ten for adult.. And eight for student..going to enjoy their singing now... (include one drink and one snack.. or two drinks... cheap cheap!!!)

So gald that I have went to this mini concert.. For the first time after this long one month.. I laughed from my heart.. Their songs filled me with joy and laughter.. I just wish this feeling will last...

Lonely..

Ever since the relationship ended, my phone become somehow rather silent and unused. Not that much of phone calls and message any more. But then again, when I was with him my phone was never that busy as well, cause my circle of friends is never that big in the first place. But I never felt a bit lonely then cause I had him. Now, I began to feel extremely lonely and lost.. I dont know if he is still reading my Blog or not. He told me that he would, but after the last bad messaging coversation, he gave me the feeling that he hate me and somehow or rather he would not want to see or do anything that got to do with me... On the other hand, if all my thoughts are not true, and that he is still reading my Blog, I just let him to know that he will get my blessing for his next upcoming relationship. He will still be 'alive' and living in as part of me. But it will be only be as part of my memories... Let the past be written and the good times to be remembered...

The Trip

I was happily thinking that I will be going to the trip that the club
people have organised. Out of courtesy, I ask him if it is ok that I
join it, as I dont want to make him feel uneasy. He answered that he have
no position to decide for me and that I were to decide it for myself. I
was really looking for it not that because he was there, but because I
need to do some stuff.I need to mingle with people.. I was looking so
forward to see baby renay! She is so cute! But then, not shortly, he
message me asking me why is it that I am so keen to go.. And that he
wonder if I have any ulterior motive to do so. I am so insulted! Is this how
he look at me? It is my life and it is his life now! All I want is to
have a good time and to relax myself.. After so much have happened and
with the work and study stress.. Then he reply that for now I should
know that it will definately be uneasy for he and me as well as the people
around us.. To me, the fact is the fact. All I want is to get into
crowd, to know more people.. At that point I was more determined to go. But
after much thinking.. I decided not to since it is going to cost so
much trouble and effect. At the same time it also just show how he though
about me..

The End

He came by to my place and returned me all my stuff. I have thousand of things to tell and ask him, but everything just stop at my lip when I saw him. I requested for the last hug from him, and he did, with a kiss on my forehead.. U sure we are still going to be friends? I ask him and he said yes..

The Red capsule

I manage to find the other half of the red capsule replacement. It was sold as a whole and not just half of it, so the newly half top piece is useless now. Though now that it looks as a whole, it will never be the one that was given to me because the other half will always be lost. The newly half piece represent the me now, as someone who need to start afresh. But all the good memories will be there, represented by the scratches on the top half piece. This red capsule will always be with me reminding of me of who I am supposed to be and to be better and to keep my memories alive. Somehow or rather, this red capsule also represent my present relationship with him, which is - friends are what we are now. Deep down me, my heart aches like hell, I dont know if it will always be aching or not..but I guess it will take a long time before it will ever be healed. For me now, I have learned to stand up on my feet, but it is going to take a while before I ever learn to walk.

Ah choo..

Shit.. Taking a bus now.. It is so Bloody cold in the bus! And I am having a cold.. Ah choo.. Just got to bear with it cheaper to take bus after all..

Relax!

I need to find some source and ways to help me relax! Finding myself very stress for the passed few days. The best part here is that I have no idea what issue or stuff I am stress over. Perhaps it is everything; work, school and life. Got to get vent out my frustration some where.. Dont worry friends, I am not the kind who will vent out my frustration on the kids. Looking very forward to my second in line blade on sun. Who knows I may get hitch by handsome guys.. Keke..

Me!

Sometime I wonder a lot about how people look at me. Friends, Pls do me a favour, tell me what you think about me. Good or bad, I will gladly take it. You can write your comment here in my Blog, or if you me in your friendster, do write a testimonal for me.. I like to know more about what you think about me. A big thanks to all of you!