I was happily thinking that I will be going to the trip that the club
people have organised. Out of courtesy, I ask him if it is ok that I
join it, as I dont want to make him feel uneasy. He answered that he have
no position to decide for me and that I were to decide it for myself. I
was really looking for it not that because he was there, but because I
need to do some stuff.I need to mingle with people.. I was looking so
forward to see baby renay! She is so cute! But then, not shortly, he
message me asking me why is it that I am so keen to go.. And that he
wonder if I have any ulterior motive to do so. I am so insulted! Is this how
he look at me? It is my life and it is his life now! All I want is to
have a good time and to relax myself.. After so much have happened and
with the work and study stress.. Then he reply that for now I should
know that it will definately be uneasy for he and me as well as the people
around us.. To me, the fact is the fact. All I want is to get into
crowd, to know more people.. At that point I was more determined to go. But
after much thinking.. I decided not to since it is going to cost so
much trouble and effect. At the same time it also just show how he though
about me..
