Our beginning was like a dream; it wasn’t easy for us to be together. We promised to each other that we would take care and cherish this relationship. Never would we want our past experience to repeat it again. We had our first kiss at the Bedok Reservoir, it was on the 13 May 2003. He held my chin and put his lips to mine. It was a kiss that I will never forget.
It was a tough period to get back after our first kiss. We could only get comfort from each other during those time
He came to meet me near the Far East Shopping Centre that night, it was my birthday. I was having dinner with my friends then.. We sat at the bench till the night got cold. He took me to his place,and we sat at the bench near the swimming pool. The night got colder , and he warmed me with his hands.
We went up to his room, and he showed me the present that he got for me. There was a bunch of paper rose held in a small vase. A Me to You bear photo frame with our photo in it. My favorite cartoon character tigger ring, lastly he got me a set of earrings and necklace in heart shape, and lastly my birthday card.Unfortunately, I have sensitive ears, hence I can't wear the pair of earrings.(But I am wearing it now..though it will itch... but I don't care..) He did not send me home though, and I insisted that it is ok that I go home myself, as the it was too late..(He was riding a bike then) Gifts from him did not just stop there.. Though they are not expensive but they mean every little meanings and thoughs from him.
Up to date he have gave me 10 cards, and every 10 cards, he wrote lots of wishes and blessing that he wants for the both of us. He knew that we are going to walk this tough road when I was going to start my dip course. In one of his card that he gave me back dated 13 May’04.
“Its been a tough 1 year for both of us as we have numerous obsticles to clear but we ‘ve made thru it.
“I hope you put your heart and soul into making this work for you. Don’t worry as I will be there for you No MATTER WHAT HAPPENS” (Back dated 21 May2004)
He gave me all the support and help that I need all this while. I am gald that he did. Not just mentally but finanically as well
But yesterday, he told me that he can’t carry this burdern any more.. He felt very tired. All his feelings and love for me are no longer that strong any more.
I admit I have faults, faults that should never have ever exist in our relationship. And that is not trusting him. But I am not pround of my action at all. The action of snob around his stuff. He felt that he no longer have the privacy that he used to have. I realised my mistake now. I a truly want to change this wrong action that I have done to be right. At the same time, it also bolied down to the fact that I love him too much. So much to the fact that I want him all to my own.
Lastly, I really do hope that he read all this, give me a chance, at the same time believing our relationship all over again. Like to wish you Happy Valentine's Day. No matter where you are.
